Friday, November 20, 2009

Baby Celia

So M and I decided to name Baby B Celia, which means "Heaven." Calling her "It" or "The Other One" didn't seem very appropriate anymore. Celia was never on my baby name list before, but now it seems perfect. We went back and forth between boy and girl names, and there definitely weren't any unisex names we liked. Thomas, which means "Twin" was the boy name...but Celia felt right.

I can't even describe the emotions I am having...heartbroken would probably be the best word. I can barely stop crying. Last night M was so good to me, holding me and letting me cry. I know he is upset, but I don't think he was prepared for my outburst of emotion.

I am sure the time will come, hopefully soon, when I can begin to focus again on the sweet baby still growing stong. I am looking forward to feeling the excitement and anticipation of meeting our little one. But I am also going to allow myself to grieve for a time.

I was thinking today about all the comments I was getting about twins...I know my belly has been huge and now I understand why!


Chris and Mary said...

I'm so sorry to hear about Celia. I'm crying reading your post. I'm here for you if you need another shoulder to cry on. Very glad to hear M is being the great man I know him to be for you. God bless both of your babies.